感叹人生

兜兜转转4年半，终于今年12月就要毕业了。
话说每一个semester我都祈求我major的课一定要达到某个grade,不然是不能毕业的。
还好，上个学期是我最后一个拿major课的sem,我都pass完了，所以现在安心等毕业。

自认不聪明，当初只是想读个hotel management当个经理。
后来家人叫我读actuarial science,也没搞清楚自己的底子，就这样读了。
好啦，现在要毕业了，可是发现这课其实最重要的还是SOA paper.
才后悔自己真的浪费了很多时间，早就应该报考。

现在临毕业要开始找工作的时候，才来惊慌失措。
心里担心得很，没有依靠。
毕业给我的感觉就是after that you are on your own.
只能考打工养自己，家人只是提供我学费上课，毕业了真的全部要自己拼回来。
我不怕辛苦，只是觉得自己planning的很失败，一切都太迟了。

这2个月大概什么都不能做，只可以专心得读书应考。
没祈求什么，让我pass吧。

最后，每当失落难过的时候，总希望有个人可以对我说：回家吧，不要在外流荡了，我养你。


这后半年将会是我得emo阶段。

拜

减肥之辛酸史/Fitness

大家好久不见，太久太久没写blog了。

人嘛，就是懒惰再加懒惰，没有什么motivation就没写啦。

但是…….今天要分享我的减肥瘦身残酷史…..

话说2年前，一切都要重我去美国留学那天说起….

2年前很标准得矮小肥胖型，身高155cm, 体重却漂浮在 48－52kg之间..腰身啊，28－29寸咯….

其实很早我姐姐都说我肥，可是好恋的我觉得：不会啊，刚刚好，哪里会肥？

深爱着我的男友也没有说我肥，现在回想起或许他不要伤我的自尊心罢？真难为你了orz….

OK,如果那时候你要我运动，IT IS IMPOSSIBRUUUUU!! 第一我很懒惰，第二当然我没时间，第三没地方，要我在这个空气污染兼炎热的天气下跑步，I’m sorry我真的办不到！

结果列，就用些旁门左道，开始买些减肥药来吃，什么巧克力，什么CBS都试过，但是效果就是”没效”!! 然后咧还有在guardian买什么瘦身茶，喝到我泻肚子到不成人型，肚子痛到不行…..花了一大笔钱什么都做不到，真的是…..

哦，那时还贪爽买了Bizzy Body Voucher去体验下瘦身疗程，还是那句，BULLSHIT….就是放个震动仪器在你的肚子震下震下，可以溶脂？一个疗程减1寸？不可能啦，真的…..最后after treatment,所谓的consultant就死命push我签配套，但是注意哦，你一定要有均匀的饮食＋运动，不然不会有效的，会反弹的。这句是那个consultant讲的，一个几千块的配套最后还是要靠自己最基本的起居饮食…所以大家千万不要受骗了。当然如果你并不肥，纯粹要塑身，那或许有效…

这些是2年前的照片，我post过很多地方所以大家参考下。

这个咧是去美国，在台湾transit的时候。看大腿吧。

 开始辛酸史，谁说去国外留学是很幸福的事啊？如果去几个月玩玩下那或许是…如果读个几年的，我觉得一点也不幸福啊。那时候没有特地要去减肥，会慢慢瘦下来的原因是因为’走路’…刚开始的时候还没有买车，几乎5天都重学校走路回家。巴士服务到傍晚6点就结束了，但是上课上到7.30晚上，可以整样？那时本来要买脚车，但是想到要买车了就不要浪费钱吧，所以就忍痛走路回家…Apartment距离学校大概2miles=3.2km…对于没运动细胞的我，根本是个难题…每次走到很累的时候， 都要逼自己走，因为不然不能回家…由于没车，去grocery shopping都要走路，想要出去吃个饭也要走路…….所以说，出国不简单，靠的是坚强啊…人生地不熟的时候，什么都要挨苦……

所以这样维持了大概3个月吧，大腿肉自己瘦下来了。至于肚腩呢，还是没瘦。还是那样肥肥的，也算了我真的没什么时间。

这个是我和我housemate的改变。我们整家人都在瘦身啊。

再回马来西亚渡暑假的1个月，我大概有收敛下饮食。就不什么吃肉。回来时不是特别瘦，但是有瘦就是了。

然后吃喝玩乐3个月又肥肥得回去美国了。

回去的时候刚好是秋季和接近冬季了，天气很冷。自然不想出门，也会想要吃多点东西补充体力。所以前5个月我完全没有去gym,也没有控制自己得饮食。所以还是胖胖一团一团得…..冬季的时候去了 New York旅行，去shopping要买衣服的时候，整个大傻眼，衣服穿在身上很难看，很肥….orz….心理默默就：好，这次真的要减肥！Haiz…可是冬季一直到3月….所以我还是给自己一大堆借口，就躲在家…….

整个人就是臃肿....

春天来了，Spring Break时候又去了趟Texas玩玩，又是Shopping的时候发现自己根本肥到不行，衣服穿到很丑….当下决定势必要减肥了！因为还有1个月半就要回马来西亚了，我要带着美美得身材回去….

长篇大论那么久，现在才来讲重点。是得，我用了大概1个月瘦下来。刚才分享的是2年前慢慢得瘦，现在是蛮夸张得减肥史。如果你做不到，那就不要开始，要做，就要做到！

* 但是在马来西亚的各位或许真的会很难，因为食物太美味了！*

第一： EAT CLEAN

千万不要节食啊，这样没体力对身体不好。最重要是要吃对的食物。I am not a nutritionist/dietician, the food list is just based on what I consume.这些只是我那时候吃得东西，如果你做不到就不要follow…不要生病了来怪我啊。

早餐－ Honey+面包一片

午餐－ Coleslaw salad+鸡蛋一粒 (egg is good for protein)

晚餐－麦片

snack –如果你真的很饿，不能tahan，那就吃水果吧. 我叻是吃orange/banana.

我几乎一个星期都这样吃，但是你可以有cheat day.或许选一天去吃好料吧，当作奖励自己！诶，然后我有点习惯了我都一直在吃麦片，麦片真的很好吃啊…orz..请叫我麦片女王！哈哈

第二：EXERCISE

如果你不想运动，那就bye bye是不能的啦。除非你天生是个瘦子，吃不胖。

由于我要读书又要做工，我可是大忙人，如果那天又上课又做工的话我也是大概晚上10/11点才回家得啊！(再次重复谁说出国好了，是谁啊TT)

所以没时间绝对不是借口！

通常我会去 gym两个小时这样。30分钟cardio,就是所谓得跑步机，骑脚车机等。总之就近情得让自己流个汗吧！

过后因为最近迷上abs,所以我就去做些abs的运动。Google/Youtube for the sample of the exercises.

Basic crunch – 100下

Right Oblique crunch – 30下

Left Oblique crunch – 30下

Hip Thrusts- 10下

这样大概做个3组。如果你刚开始，那就做1组，然后慢慢前进。

诶，然后本人有怪异的审美感，我也有去练手臂。不过大多数男生好像不喜欢，就觉得手臂小就好了。但是我自己想要有比较有力的手臂所以我自己有练啦，会举个10kg的dumbell…

还有我的大腿本身已经瘦下来了，所以我没有去瘦大腿。这些大家自己google/youtube下咯 J

第三：MOTIVATION+DISCIPLINE

我还很extreme得会check calorie intake…就买食物时会看，然后决定买还是不买…

零食全部丢掉吧，给点挑战自己，不吃就不吃。

不要给自己借口，没有累，没有懒。 我早上8点起身，也很累，可是也是要去做运动，然后做工…

第四：定时审视自己

照下镜子，量下体重，量下尺寸。Push yourself toward your goals. 不要理会别人的眼光，也不要介意别人的成果。如果没有hit your routine, then try it again tomorrow. 

Never Give Up.

大概就这样吧。如果你真的follow,我相信1个月你会看到效果。我回马来西亚之前大概瘦到43kg…重48-43， 就瘦了5kg….腰叻就明显瘦下，重28－24inch我其实 target 40kg不过这个好像不可能发生我也不要勉强了。哈哈

Before Back to Malaysia.我发誓这个我绝对没有修图！脸好尖啊，不过有make up所以才更尖？不过我housemate是说我的脸瘦到剩骨，不可以再瘦了

23.6 inch，线条也有点了。不过这个是刚回马来西亚不久...

 现在标准体重45kg/155.5cm/24inch腰. 很矮啦。 然后审美观或许因为在美国，大家都喜欢线条美，瘦只是瘦，但是有线条才是王道啊！所以回来这里后就蛮积极得练线条，但是就没eat clean了。因为晚餐一定要和家人吃，所以…. TT 不过午餐我还只是麦片／面包  J

还是有去gym..习惯了所以现在练abs的时候我有加重量。刚开始的你们还是不要先，不然你会腰酸背痛 J 所以progress有点慢，但是我不会放弃的啦。看到abs开始慢慢隐隐约约要出现的时候是很开心的啊！

瘦下来的时候。

开始有线条的时候。 p/s: 那个印是拔罐弄到的，应该要些时间才会复合TT

这张是星期六拍的，22 June 2013. 

'Skinny Girls look good in clothes, FIT girls look good NAKED' 

非常赞同！

长篇大论了那么久，就是这样啦。没什么特别，我相信很多人也是这样来维持身材。所以现在fb不管打什么广告说这个产品多有效，我都不会相信了;o

身材比较好了，穿衣服也比较开心了。那时去大胆的穿了人生第1次比基尼啊， oh I know it is lame…哈哈。 Show下几张照片。我的照片如果你要说我edit,那就欢迎你来看我真人吧。暂时见了我的人都说我瘦下来了，好怕肥回啊….你知道这里的食物咯…haiz

几张近期的我，fb/instagram post了的。

BYE BYE!

2013 Resolutions

Yooo, is time to share my resolutions for this year.
Well,last year people keep talking about the end of the world (obviously I didn't give a DAMN about it).
It did not happen and hence another new year is coming. Lolllllolll

Lets get started !

#1 Maintain my body. FYI, I am still on diet plan. I am not so satisfy with my body shape yet, I hope to get a smaller tummy! My tummy is still round and round and round == Any effective method to slim the waist? (pls tell me!)

#2 Get a small tattoo. Been thinking this for a year. I have a scar caused my hair curler and I plan to cover it by putting a tattoo on it. But seem like it takes forever to be achieved.

#3 Pass at least 2 SOA papers. This is for my career. Will try my very best to study for it. hmm..

#4 Graduated smoothly. Currently I am in my senior year (which is the last year) in my undergraduate program. Yeahooooooooo......Last year to suffer and I will be FREE!

#5 Kena powerball. I CAN WIN IT! lol.....神灵请保佑我

#6 My family stay healthy and happy.

#7 Good relationship with my boy. 相亲相爱不要吵架

Anyway, this cute pic actually summarize my resolutions. LOL

So far....I can only figure out all these targets.
Wish I can nail them...hmmm..
xoxo

Flash Back 2012

After 4 months of quit blogging, I am here again.
Just want to share my life in 2012 as every blogger will do.
Well, my life is pretty simple.
Been study for the entire year, and the life keep repeating everyday.

Let's Started! (It will be a LONG LONG post)

#1  Manage to slim down. I guess this is the biggest achievement so far. Never realize that I was that fat because no one ever tell me that I am fat. So,i do not care about my body shape and keep eating until the day after I came to US. I started to figure out my body and what the fuck I have so many fat around my body. Should really thank you my bf for stay by my side although I was that fat! (This called True Love ka??)

#2   Fly back to Malaysia during Summer break for 3 months! I must said that period was so memorable and I had so much fun. Staying together almost everyday with my bf was like just a dream. He brought me to everywhere I requested and we had 3 meals together everyday. Played Lami before sleep, lay on the couch and watched tv together. I MISS THAT TIME DAMN MUCH !

#3 Travel to Bangkok,Thailand with my bf. Thanks my bf for sponsored me and be the organizer for the whole trip. In my opinion, I do not really like Bangkok. I feel quite boring when visiting it. I know it should be a paradise for girl since the clothes sold there are very cheap and nice. I didn't attract by those clothes because the material too thin, I cannot bring back to wear in US, will freeze to death. lol

#4 Happy 3 years Anniversary with my bf ! He insisted to bring me to restaurant to treat me a really good dinner but I refused to. Just don't feel to waste the money so ended up he bought me a CAKE! I must said this is my first time to have this celebration with bf.

#5 New House finally fully furnished! Been talking about this for years and finally it is done. I must thanks my mum for all her effort. FYI, I am from a single family and my mum strive really hard to earn money and taking care of us. My mum put a lot of work for this house and finally it is done. Been staying in new house for the entire 3 months in Malaysia :)

#5 Celebrated my 21st Birthday in my new house! Thanks my family and bf for making this party a successful one. Been planning whether to organize my party in a restaurant or house and finally decided to place the party in the house. Thanks my sis for all the decorations, Bf for helping me around to serve people, Ryon be the photographer :)

And this was the first time I received flowers and I was so damn touch and happy. The bf surprised me and gave me a ring too! Many of them thought it was a purpose but sad la, it is Not. (i also hope it was a purpose?!) hahaha....Anyway I was really happy and I love you !!

Thanks for those who attended my party and the presents!! Thanks mummy for giving me gold necklace which is so damn expensive(可看不能带出街) lol.

#6 Travel to Florida. For more picture, please browse in my fb :)

#7 Still staying Good with my housemates+best friends. Without them, I really cannot survive by myself alone in US. We laugh together, study together, work together, joke together...and etc. Although sometimes we argue, but I am glad that we can settle the argument and be friend again! Thanks you guys for tolerating me. It is not difficult to be friend, but to be a friend aka housemate, It will be super hard. But we made it so far !! yeah yeah yeah :)

#8 Went clubbing for the first time in US ! Actually just went to a GAY club to support one of my friend in his show. But it was fun though :) Hope got chance to go club again,lol lol lol

#9 Bought myself an Iphone5. So far so good. Love the camera so much i guess it is really improved if compared to ip4.

#10 Cut my fucking long hair! When I found out my hair no longer has any shape or style, I decided to give my hair a changeover. So I cut the bangs and did full highlights on it. Cannot accept at first because I think it does not suit me well. Cry for a night and feel no confident on myself. But after-all I am now OK with it already. And frankly speaking I love the highlight though.

#11 Travel to California+Las Vegas+New York. So happy can meet with Lilian and Rowen! Will write a post separately for this so just wait !

#12 Countdown NYE in Times Square, New York! Never think that I will have chance to come to New York for countdown...but I did ! YEAH ! Wait from 3pm to 12am under -2 degree weather is super crazy... Oh, I met a lot of celebraties in close distance, PSY,Taylor Swift, Carly Rae Jepsen, Neon Tress and etc....So i think it worth la. XD

Hmm...I think that is..
Stay tuned for my 2013 resolutions !
xoxo